Seated in a coffeehouse reading & thinking. This is where it sometimes creeps up on me in ambush - my To Do list. Most times it excites me, but sometimes it haunts me & taunts me in the early morning like a persistent debt collector. Like the irritant of a ringing phone piercing the quiet, or the weight of a pile of Notice Due mailers in my lap, I sit both repelled & lethargic under its influence. Then comes the doubt: Can I do this work? Can I make this happen? Can I get it done? Am I the guy for this job? Here's where a good bit of my more blatant brokenness is brought to the forefront for my consideration in an effort to tip the scales in favor or relenting. No squad is cheer-leading on these early morning sidelines. No pep talk from the coach. And no way to call the game on account of rain. Squeezed in the middle of these negatives I get myself up & keep moving. And with my prayers I just keep driving until I see a break in the clouds off in the distance. And I head toward the spotlight rays of sun there along the thin edge of the storm. In one form or another I've been solicited to relent my whole life - Doubly so once I took on Jesus. Plenty of offered reasons to let it all go. Only one reason to keep it all going. But that one reason is plenty. And it holds me steady, even in the tricks & storms & stumblings that mark every few miles on this my advancing journey.